dreaming of a better thinner me

the goal of everything is to get to the core of the problem the cause and effect the side effects seem to be emotional binge eating , social awkwardness ,excessive over thinking these are the ones i mentioned because they seem to be the ones that make me the most unhappy  other sides  effect that i don't mind or are mild and easier to decipher are mild hallucinations when i dissociate and lose time forgetfulness  delusional thoughts that may or may not be delusions because sometime these thoughts are right more right then wrong but easily ignored and always ignored to keep me some what sane i dream that dealing with these will help me get that thinner happier me hiding under all the fat that was put there as protection